"Whiney"

Looking through my old posts, I find this record of thoughts, sharing and impulse doings childish and sometimes, pointless. In comparison to another record of similar media written by another person, thought to be similar to myself, but yet vastly different on the inside, this record is "whiney".

That record can be found here, and I feel obliged to invite each one of you to read it, despite my disfavour of long essays in digital format with a small typeface.

Just recently, him and I spoke about capital and corporal punishment through the video game "Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney", how law and jurisdiction systems work around the world; how they are flawed, and our personal thoughts on what could be better for the world.

We also discussed about how an "indecent" industry known as pornography could be used for a "decent" cause known as charity.

Jocularly, I dubbed it Come to Help.

We discussed many other things; for instance the topic of piracy and Digital Rights Management and their ethics.

But people don't see why he indulged in things that made him the the type of person who is described as ひきこもり (Hikikomori), or a parasite single.

He could play a pirated video game for an hour, and have thoughts that an average normal, healthy person whom contributes to society (and bought the game) of the same age, would cover in a month -- or I dare say, even a year.

But I think that this blessing was also a curse for him. For he tried to use video games and other things to suppress those thoughts, because they caused him guilt and dissatisfaction. And at the same time, it was a positive feedback of those thoughts, as the more he indulged, the more he felt that he was a burden to society and his parents.

And your average seventeen year-old down the street are still whining about how their lives are unfair, and how their part-time jobs fetched such low salaries compared to many others'.

Perhaps too much generalisation was involved in my judgement of "average people", but I found my dear friend very much an average guy. It was his choice to learn about the loopholes of society, the flaws of laws, and how the very world he lived in did not seem to be one that he belongs to.

So in a very inappropriate sense, I respect his choice for leaving, like how I respect his thoughts, his ideas, his friendship; because those were his choice as well.